I wonder

I wonder what style you would like.

I wonder if you would have a crush on a boy from school.

I wonder if you would like make-up and getting your nails done.

I really wonder if you would’ve gotten along with me well as well as we did before you left.

I wonder what you would’ve wanted to be, would you have still wanted to be an artist or in the military?

Would you have finally gone to Japan like you wanted to?

I wonder how Noelia would’ve been with you as her first older sister since you both would’ve been near the same age.

I often wonder how you would speak and how you would laugh. Would you laugh the same as you did before you went off to the holy land?

I really wonder how things would’ve been at home with you around. I know in my heart if you were back here I wouldn’t take a single moment for granted.

I wonder if we would’ve been a better family with you around still.

I will forever wonder these questions…

As time goes on and knowing you would’ve been 18, 20, 25, 40 it makes me sad to think of all the possibilities you could’ve and would’ve had. I will forever miss you and cherish the time I had spent with you. I love you Lilliana.

<3

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